Anonymous:
Why u self loathe? That no healthy.

I self loathe at this time for many reasons.

I’m find out only recently that in the course of taking on too much on board last year, I fucked off even more people than I realised, to the point of some of them not wanting to work with me (regardless of my naivety). I loathe myself for this.

I go to work, and make fuckups that frustrate me hugely, whether I’ve been prepared/experienced enough to recognise them or not.  I loathe myself for this.

I demand a lot of myself in what I achieve and want to learn, and project these expectations onto others.  I don’t feel accomplished with the past half year’s intentions of my creative work, and I see my peers and friends progressing with their lives.  I loathe myself for this.

I decidedly act on things that I assume are ok, only to recognise later that they weren’t, because I have little emotional intelligence, and hurt a lot of people as a result.  I’m a fucking terrible person to other people, especially those closest.  I loathe myself for this.

I’m a catalyst of frustration and anguish for everybody and everything around me, and it would be better if I had never existed.  These reasons are why I self loathe.

that deep self loathing that consumes your mind to physical paralysis

yeah, that’s where i’m at

samelnicomposer:

crazeemuse, rhapsodicmumbler, and danisnotadj are all contemporary musicians that live in Adelaide and I found them all through Tumblr.

whoa

samelnicomposer, you should meet prokovensky too.  He and I met casually through tumblr, and a few months later were both in the Australian String Quartet’s National Composers’ Forum 2013.  A small world for tumblrites indeed (AND WE’RE ALL QUEER <3) :)

Experimental cooking with Scouts is best

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rhys-nixon:

badoinz:

tread softly, because you tread on my memes

Fuck

oh richard…

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3leapfrogs:

•=• •=• •=•

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snuggydeamon:

and because I ran out of room: 

 In-Depth Powerpoint Examples: 

Destiel 

Johnlock

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morenglas:

Vincent D’Indy; Cours de composition musicale, deuxième livre, première partie, 1912

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chickensandwich:

how she do that

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sexhaver:

westindians:

R.I.P. the actual meaning of the word “aesthetics” 

the way this website uses “aesthetics” is 100% in line with the dictionary definition, what’s the weather like up there on your high horse

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your-daisyfreshgirl:

stunningpicture:

Chinese doctors bowing down to a 11 year old boy diagnosed with brain cancer who managed to save several lives by donating his organs to the hospital he was being treated in shortly before his death.

Incredible

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